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Sunday, January 15, 2006
Blahz. Realised there are many types of source based questions i am not exposed to, and i am no longer that confident as i was in E maths. Bad NEws.I am just going to take it easy. Having a headache now...whatever that will come will come. SO, i will just try my best.
I realised i am heart broken to see my grandmother in that state. and i am too busy to help her...it just upsets me...who will ever understand such feelings???Its more than depressed, more than upset, more than anything....
Well...i had a talk with someone over huangzhi ytd...that person said i didnt give up on him, i am just waiting for him to learn how to deal with matters and people in a more appropriate way...perhaps i am...but nonetheless i am not going to care about him...
well, that person is right...he needs a true friend, but that person must be very very patient...i dont have that kind of patience...of course its not only bcos of him not replying that i gave up on him, there are too many reasons...mainly because i don wan myself to be hurt again...am i too selfish to do so???
I know myself...i will not allow myself to refrain from helping somebody if that person needs help...so...sigh...but he isn a person who will tell others his problems...he has his pride, and thus won listen to others....that's his biggest problem...he has to learn how to listen to other's advice at times...he will learn more...
i guess its because of his big family that he doesn noe how to deal with certain stuff...And as a friend, we can only guide him...how i wish he would be different...listen to others a bit more, and think before he does things...it will be better for him this way...i just hope he learns...even if i didnt choose to give up on him, i cant possibly be by his side forever...
sometimes i really wished i hadn made that decision...it pains me...and i guess he brings pain to his beloved as well...I have always regarded him as a true friend...it is true that he does need help, but firstly he doesn accept help, and secondly he doesn cherish friendships...and i am not up to a one way friendship...
Today, he replied and said that i will say stuff again if he didnt reply...what was that supposed to mean???i told him it no longer mattered...it really didn...if he chose not to reply to messages which are meant to be replied, he is just not giving me that little respect, and that is his problem...i just don have the energy to care anymore.
Enough said.
I realised i haven spent time with myself recently...so i think i will go to chinatown this weekend...destress a little...I guess i need it...
Why do people think???