Crystal Clear.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
got tons to do...die...there's lit, chinese (5 essays, mind u), physics chem and bio to revise...and of course source based to practise...and i only have today...tmr going to help shawn out in chem and bio, then goin for CO concert at the esplanade...so i won't be free...so tonight will be an all out night. oh. i hate this.Managed to sort things out...Muahahaha. Here's what i thought, and many agreed.
Huangzhi, of course, is a friend. Well, to him, steadies are more important than anything in this world, including friends. he believes that his someone won leave him. Well, that's what most boyfriends would think, so i won say anything. It may true, god knows. I admit he did help me a bit a few months back, but that was it. I was naive then. I thought this friend would be for eternity if i helped him whenever i could. Well, i was wrong. Apparently, although he held an important position in my heart, it is not true for him. So this friendship has became a one sided thing. He uses busy as an excuse not to reply whatever i have said. So, i thought, and pondered. Since he doesn't cherish this friendship, why should i be upset over him not caring over me? why should i still care so much about him? i got better things to do. He deserves it the fact that i have decided not to care about him anymore. So, until he proves to me that he does cherish this friendship and is not using me in any sense, i will not be moved to change my decision. I HAVE DECIDED AND MY DECISION IS FINAL.
I may seem a little to harsh, but i guess, i have no other choice. i really struggled during this period of time. I guess, its good that it ends this way.
Well, nothing much happened...so...i guess...i'm going off to do work...happy doing.
Do friendship really lasts forever?