Unexpected.
Friday, January 20, 2006
i thought i saw marcus online a moment ago...then he disappeared liaoz. lol.today had a very interesting lesson on alchohols...made me wan to drink. do vodka, brandy and whisky taste nice???never tried them before. hmm.they sound nice. haha.
hmm. mr loh, my physics teacher, was from fairfield methodists. that's mr lim's ex school. mr loh said when he was in fairfield, mr lim was one of the teachers there. my class was like wow...then mr loh siad last time mr lim very dashing de...he had wonderful eyes...haha. then we joked with mr lim...we asked him if he was very handsome in the past.then he said, only in the past arh??haha...
this weekedn got a lot of hwk siah. crazy de. there's eng reader's digest wkst and an essay, chinese reflections, add math and e math assign, SS essay, Lit Twelfth Night key qn, Act 1 scene 5 worksheet (including 3 mini essays), unseen prose, and history essay. apparently miss tay is too busy with her history classes, so i guess i will finish all except the history. i will try to get SS done. soo busy.
maybe this sunday goin out with marcus...depends on whether he wants to come over to singapore. if he chose not to, i guess i will be a little disappointed, but i won blame him...its so far away. we are a country apart. haha. today we chatted so happily during chinese lesson. talked about crap.i enjoyed it.
hmm...today i decided to msg hz. goin to eat e malay tutu my mum bought first. haha.tell u later.
decided to eat in front of the com. haaha.
eating....
done.
doesn taste that good.
oh damn. stomachache.
be back.
lol...wat did i wanted to say? oh ya, abt me msgin hz today. somehow or another,i felt that i wasn one who will give up on anyone. its just not typical of me. and suddenly all e good times i have with him (n jordan) came back...its such a waste. so i decided to msg him and ask him if he was still angry with me being a 'nosey parker'.
he said he wasn, and said he thinks tt he doesn deserve me treating him (i asked if he wanna go eat) cos he treats me badly. (i told him i agreed with him). but he still thinks that i'm a nosey parker. he said that he only helped me when me n qian's problem got very bad, and when he didnt complain when i was complaining like anything then. its quite true lah...i must admit. then he asked me if i was sort of wrong to interfere into his problems? did i interfere without him approaching me?? (he also apologised if the msg sounded sarcastic or wrong, or it guai lan me)
Well...i told him, if he don wan me to interfere, fine. its just that i feel a bit manipulated...i can only help him when he wants me to, its like he only allows other to help when he really needs it, otherwise it will be interfering into his prob...but i guess...that's him bah. he will never listen to me...even if i repeat for dunno how many times...i wish he learns and grow. its really time he did.
whatever it is, it's still a fact that i still care for him as a friend. but i guess, i'm not goin to interfere with his problems, that is, unless he approaches me...well, i doubt he will.
after all, he has so many ppl around to play afool with, to joke with...he doesn need me.its just that...i hope the good times with him as a friend will last...same goes for marcus and wilson, and everybody else.
i realised after such a long time, i still fear of losing my friends. i'm afraid they will get angry, blah blah blah...i should have more confidence in myself...
well, i guess i feel better after getting this matter thrashed out...i guess its time i learnt how to settle things myself, rather than asking ppl for advice and not following them.its tough, but i will learn.
i guess its back to hwk...i intend to finish add and e maths, and start with either SS or lit.
Good luck. may all fortune be with me. haha.