Wonder. Wonder.
Monday, January 16, 2006
Dots...got back my a math paper...that's like so fast...ermx, got 28 out of 35...still not that bad, but i expected 30...well, marcus expected 30 as well, but he got 32...he should have given me the 2 marks...lol..that happened for last yr's english as well...Today's e maths was okayy....easy in fact. but i made a very silly mistake.it should be sin85, i put it as sin200!!!!!!and i managed to spot it, but i didnt have time to change everything...so the last part, worth 2 marks, was gone...mayb 1 mark for working...so, a total of 4 marks is gone....this test can get full marks de lorhz....sigh.why am i so careless??????
SS was okayy, hope i got the purpose correct...if not, i think at least 5 marks gone...and the inference...i am not sure if i got it also...
suddenly i'm so unsure of everything.
whatever.
Wei guo gave me his blog ytd, and i read the whole thing by today...i know that's crazy, but i am really bored...so...his blog made me think...and made me envious of him...
He has such good relationship with his cousin...and goes out with frenx so often...well, i don...i don blame anyone, but sometimes i wish i am not that alone...its tiring to be alone. at the same time its tiring to be with people. oh its so contradicting...its tiring to switch over...haiz...
his blog made me think...what do i want in life...i thought of it last night before i slept...i realised i have no idea...i am those kind who are fine with anything...the only thing i wan to do is to travel, travel and travel. nothing else. and maybe teach, or do volunteer work to help those in need. that's all. is that a goal in life???
well...i am back to those lost days...sometimes i just sit in class, and go all silent...i just don feel like talking. and just think, why am i doing all these nonsense??? i just wished i had nothin to do with all this. just hang out everyday with some close frenz, talk crap, and it will be fine. i am just sick and tired of all these, sick and tired of studying for tests. at the same time, arghz...i donno.
I DUNNO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i am gettin back into depression again. Damn.
Just now msged hz. (btw, i am no gay, i mention him in my entries cos...its really gettin into me)
i asked him if he is still angry with me. well, he said he aint angry with anyone. he said he v sian, and he doesn feel like being angry with anyone. so i said, since u chose not to be angry, why isn he eating with her? is he tryin to punish her for talking to guys?
he didn reply.
and so i added, he shldn be manipulating her. she does belong to him, but she still has the right to talk to others...blah blah blah. i also said that he shld start learning how to deal with things the proper way, otherwise he wld lose all his true frenz. blah blah blah. and i told him to have lunch with her. doubt he will listen
he didn reply either.
why am i doing this???its no longer my prob. its his prob.
I DON WANNA CARE ABT ANYTH ANYMORE!!!
oh damn.
haiz. there's physics tmr. don feel like studyin. i really don feel like studying for tests anymore.
and my grandmother...wonder how she is now...she's quite ke lian actually...with the bandage...then cant do things...but she's bored, and she will start to do some stuff...haiz...how i wish i can help her.
i feel so helpless. useless. feel like crying out loud.
damn.
someone help me!!!
haiz.
Why like that???