alone.
Thursday, July 27, 2006
didnt sleep well last night, neck hurts now..it wasn so bad in the morning..now i find it extremely tiring to walk with my head straight...thanks bao for massaging my neck for me.i was alone on the mrt, when i just thought of being alone once again...its wrong to say that actually, for i have been alone all the while. i'm not complaining over that, in fact i have stopped wishing for someone to be my side quite some time ago...i know that i shouldn be disturbing others, and i shld just accept my fate and be alone. there's nth wrong about being alone, just that i feel empty at times...being in sch makes me forget this (haha...kena gl all the time, but thanks anyway), but when i'm alone, it just comes back...
i do not deny that i do yearn to have someone who's always beside me, like a brother or sth, even though i know its not possible...instead of trying to wish for the impossible, i shld be thinking of how to make loneliness a good feeling instead of a bad one (sounds pretty impossible too, huh?) but still...i don't know how.
i just don't like the feeling of emptiness...it makes one feel lost. sad to say, i will have to leave it the way it is...
i don't have a choice.