back to square one.
Friday, July 28, 2006
today's BPGHS's 46th annual speech day...pretty alright, with lye ee being awarded the most outstanding student award and shawn being awarded the aesthetic award..or sth like tt.well..i have been thinking over some stuff which i seem to have neglected lately...
its a painful realisation, but i realised that i cannot be relying on someone all my life, even though i really want to. even for now, i have to depend on myself...i always had the wish of having someone who is very close to me, whom i can share everyth with...but i realise that others cannot be listening to me all the time. they have their own lives to lead, their own problems to handle, and so on...how can i be so selfish to disturb them over my own personal problems? if i really regard them as true friends, i shld think for them as well...
i must admit it's a struggle...its between something i want and something i shouldn't do..and so sometimes i do lose control and do the wrong thing...to those who have listened to me, i really do appreciate it...n i donno wat to do to thank u guys..i will try my best not to disturb u guys in the future, but if i do, please forgive me. it truly isn't intentional.
so essentially, i'm back to the days of being alone again, literally and metamorphically. i'm trying to look at it in a more optimistic way..i think i will be able to succeed someday...with the guys helping me. thanks a lot!!!
jor and i now talking abt helping ourselves...(to problems, not food) lol...
nitex.