untitled 5.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
i'm not sure if i did the right thing. i turned slightly nasty to someone today.i just wan to protect myself from being hurt any further. the beloved couple (more on the guy's side) has long crossed my limit, and i'm showing much more tolerance that i should.
when diplomacy doesn't work, deterrence comes in.
i will really be upset if i don do well for prelims bcos of you know who. although i'm convinced that i've tried my best this time round, its still..not worth it.
i've decided to give up completely. no more buts. no more pleads. no more.
give me a break. i need it. i need time, time to heal my pain. my pain that is unbearable, that leaves a terrible scar in my heart.
thanks to the rest of you. love ya always.
sick again.
Sunday, August 27, 2006
the flu has been stuck with me since yesterday. it was so freaking hot, so i switched on the air con. and the flu came. ate the 2 BIG panadol pills for cold this morning at 3 am, and almost choked on it, but still didnt get well.speaking of it, the weather's really very hot. i've never sweated when i'm doing work late in the night, until this morning.
sigh. global warming. blah blah blah..
physics and bio practicals over. more worried for phy, lost 4 to 5 marks for nothing already. but i don think its well set. pretty ambiguous. going to fight for marks that i deserve. lol. but it really depends on the marking scheme. same for bio.
pointless brooding over what had happened. what is gone, is gone. now, i shld look forward, and deal with the coming papers - chem prac, eng and SS!!!
studying SS, going to study chem prac later. hope i don screw up for titration..
no time for personal thoughts. but still, let me reflect a bit.
a few days back, i was just thinking abt stuff. thought of what i wld do if i didn do well for the prelims. sigh. i asked myself, is marks still that important? i don think so. it wouldn affect me so much, even if i didn do well. i just want to get on with life, finish my education, and do the thing i want to do in life.
then i thought about graduation. n how terrible i would feel. but, we have to separate one day.
thought of marcus. boo gang. n everyone else from 4t1.
i realised i had been very lucky. after him, i nv expected to find someone who could make me so happy. someone who could bring me a smile, even i was in the baddest of all moods. i guess i'm have become dependent on such a good friend. but who wouldn't?
now, i just hope that everyone keeps in contact after graduation.
ok. rested enough. or maybe i shld rest more. still sick.
depends. but going to log off nevertheless. cya.
o lvl eng oral examination.
Monday, August 21, 2006
today's my oral examination. come to think of it, i'm not sure if i did well. i didn manage to amuse the examiners, and for the first paragraph of my reading i swallowed my final consonants because i was, well, nervous. my conversation and picture was fine. at least to me, it was.hope i can get a distinction...actually i thought i saw a 2 digit no. for my reading. hope that's the case.
mr osgodby's prediction came true again!!! he predicited friendship for his class last fri, n it came out. today he told us something on elderly and health would come out, and it did!!
well, it didnt help much though. its not a very good topic to talk about, and the passage had tough words such as 'physiotherapists' and 'diagnosis'. lol.
i'm in a bad mood now... thinking of the time spent at the waiting room. realised that i don't know that person anymore. he seems so foreign, so much like a stranger.
why has things become like that?
is it my fault?
its sad. he just wasnt the person i knew. i didn bother to retort whatever that he said. i don't see the point. i guess, its gone.
i'm tired... how i wish for a shoulder to lean on...
well. reality crashes in. time for work.
yawn...
Sunday, August 20, 2006
i'm at my granny's house now..v tired. spent the day with jor, went through oral and a bit of ss with him..but still, it was quite slack.anyway today i intended to slack, so doesn matter.
tmr's o lvl eng orals, feeling a bit gan chiong. lol. but still, since i told marcus to be confident of himself, i should be for myself as well...lol. so i will give it my best shot, and get my a1!!!!
lol. there's still a lit question left undone...deciding if i should do it...well, nvm.
don't feel like typing anymore...cya.
Coping notes...
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
its one of the slack chem lessons again..trying to get as much stuff as i can..haha. cya...
pri sch crystal growing workshop...
Friday, August 11, 2006
hmm. haven't blogged for a long, long time. haha.so busy with work. i think i'm going to go absolutely mad over the weekend. haha. imagine a bear being mad. lol.
anyway, today's the pri sch crystal growing workshop...had pri 5 students from west view and my pri sch (woo hoo). i was the practical lecturer, and found the exp cool. they are so cute and innocent, n i guess i really miss those good old primary school days...haha.
i bonded especially well with my pri sch mates...or so to speak. cos we know the same ppl. miss nicole goh came, and it was a wonderful and fruitful experience. they made some lead (II) iodide crystals and i presented it to her. lol.
well..have to go muG physics...fancy doing that on a friday night. lol.
cya.
prelims...
Saturday, August 05, 2006
have been really busy lately, so wont be blogging so much...prelims' round the corner, and everyone's working hard for it...
to my beloved 4T1, continue to work hard, and do yourself proud!!! believe in yourself, and you will do well!!!
we may be stressed up now, but its going to over soon. we will then separate, and god knows what will happen then.
well..jia you and good luck ppl!!!