pre-exam syndrome
Saturday, September 09, 2006
haven't blogged for quite long...trying my best to study for prelims.i'm not sure if all my studying had been useful, but at least i tried.
slacked quite a bit today, only did a bit of e maths, studied olivia, went through history again..
so later going to do a set of SBQ, finish up olivia, and...study the humour scenes...
well...i'm not lamenting or anything, but seriously, i really have SUPPORTIVE parents...as in. my dad can get into a bad mood bcos he is going to be out of job, my mum can get into a bad mood cos of her health, and i cannot get into a bad mood cos i'm freaking fruustrated from my studies. now how fair is that.
they drag me out for dinner, n made a big fuss out of it. sometimes i really don feel like going, but..i'm just trying to be their 'good child'. what more, my mum gets unhappy when i give her the so-called 'black face'. they expect me to be smiling when i'm like, under such immense stress? are they mad? or shld i say, shld i go mad bcos of them???
i wonder how they really think of me. do they still love me? or shld i ask, do i still love them?
i rather not know the answer. reality is harsh. painful.
sigh..i really do not what to say anymore..just have to get on with life, and continue studying...
and..good luck people. study, to give urself a choice. keep faith!