good things. bad things.
Sunday, January 28, 2007
bad things happen. no matter you like it or not.but bad things happen for a reason. its a consequence of a wrong thing that a person has done.
as what i always say, things happen for a reason. they don't just happen because they are supposed to.
well, many things happened recently. good or bad, i don't know. but they are enough to knock me awake. i have been in a fairyland for far too long.
back to reality dude.
i guess i've to look at life with a different perspective. give others a chance, and give myself a chance. make new friends, know new people, learn new things. adapt to changes. make life a better one.
but then again, there are decisions to make. jc or poly? if jc, which one? if poly, which poly and what course?
enough of these hard choices.
sidetrack a bit.to those who are closer to me, you guys know what happened. probably i shouldn't hold any more false hope. and let things be. because it doesn really matter to him anymore.
ha. goin to watch hua yang. enough of sad stuff. till then.
bleak days ahead.
Monday, January 22, 2007
guess the best days are really over. whatever that may come, it simply doesn't matter anymore.well. guess it is a new chapter of my life. like it or not, i have to live through it.
life's unfair. life's short. life's full of uncertainties.
may the day i'm hoping for come. or am i actually hoping for that day to come? i wonder...
disturbance.
Sunday, January 07, 2007
looks like i'm really becoming a disturbance to people, even to the closest friends that i have. i don't know how, but i guess being over reliant on someone has its disadvantages.does that mean that i've to revert back to my past? where i just don't show any emotions, don't talk much...and be a loner? instincts tell me that's the best way out.
but whether or not i can revert is another question. i have tried too hard for too many things, till i do not know what is it that i want at the end of the whole process. take for example, the most important ppl in my life, friends. it seems to me that friends have to leave me at the end, and i have learnt to accept this fact. so what's the point of me struggling so hard to keep friends? for the memories i suppose.
ultimately, i am left with very few things in life. after all that struggle, that hard work that i put in. probably i handle things in the wrong way, and if that is the case, i have only myself to blame. yet i cant help but to think that i deserve better.
so what can i do now? pray that that someone doesn leave? actually, i'm prepared for that person's departure. just that i don't want it to happen. i cannot bring myself to accept the fact that that person does not see me as a good friend. or at the very least, a friend.
but if the fact is as follows, i guess i have no other choice. life's always like that, it does not give you a choice. you just have to take it. unfair as it is, but it's life.
sigh...looks like my hopes for a good jc life is dashed. period.
Posting from Hong Kong International Airport
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Yo!!!! I'm currently at hong kong international airport, waiting for my flight back home which is at 4pm. hong kong is a terrific place for food and shopping, its such a pity that i have to go back home so soon.spent the past few days here, and i must say i enjoyed my trip. missed my frens too, of course.
well, i got to run. going to grab some food before my flight. blog more about this trip when i get home.
till then. cya!!