where change equates delta.
Monday, June 11, 2007
in this world, there are people who want to fall in love, but cant because its the wrong choice. yet people still make the wrong choice, for obvious reasons.It is wonderful to be embraced by love. but hey, i don even dare to think about falling in love.
because i'm too emotional. i get crushed even in friendships, what more relationships. i get overwhelmed by it, and start to talk about it, and ppl gets irritated by it.
and the cycle goes on.
its pointless to explain my stand, bcos once you are thought to be irritating, that's it. at least i hope that one person understands. that is good enough for me. i cannot ask for that much.
and now, i don't even dare to make new friends. good ones especially. fear maybe one of the reasons, but i would think i'm just being practical.
while that one person gets to discover his personality elsewhere, i'm still stuck. i'm clueless. i don't know where to go. i'm trying to be optimstic...
i'm really clueless.
and i guess i have to change. i'm not sure if its for myself, but its better that way. i want to be a friend to others, not a burden. no more emo stuff. i guess i will tone down alot. into someone whom i don't even know. or even back to the past.
1 year. that's how long i'm giving myself.
and all this is happening just when i opened up.
it seems that everything i do just isn't right. while some people can go eat ice cream as a group, its difficult for me even to get someone out.
don even try talking about fairness to me. because things were never fair.
that's it. the change has begun.