Inspiration?
Sunday, October 21, 2007
i'm not sure whether this will stay, but at least i've sorted out my thoughts, period.ytd i was watching this chinese talk show, and this 82 year old woman inspired me greatly. she said (in mandrin) that we should not bow to any difficulties, but should allow these to increase your intelligence and your ability to better manouevre your own life.
how true is that.
i'm quite certain that my psychological prob will not be solved, at least for now. but i think that if i can contain it well enough such that it doesn't affect my daily life, it should be fine.
i must admit that i was previously angry for the lack of concern from my friends, but i guess striking a balance is important. to be frank, you can't expect your friends to care for you all the time. they have their own lifes to lead as well. and all along i don't want to be a hindrance to them.
and people, you really have to depend on yourself. not others. that's what i learnt.
as for lack of motivation to study...i suppose it will come back. if it doesn't...later only then say.
had dinner with jor and hz just now.
and i still said i don't want anyth to do with hz. i just cant bring myself to do that, can i?
indeed, everyone has their flaws. in order to be a true friend, you have to try to accept another's flaws, and try to improve them, if possible.
although he said things that hurt me, i realised i never took them to heart. it applies to those who hurt or teased me. to me, there really isn't a need to bear grudges, especially long lasting ones. its more tiring to hate a person than to befriend him.
having said that, there're some things which will leave a scar and will probably stay there for as long as i can remember. so i guess i won't help him anymore.
back to the dinner.
was quite a great one, chatted with them. haven't met jor since before promos, really hope he's doing fine. hz kept encouraging him to study, which he really should. i guess i will try to help him, if i can spare the time.
my true self is still there....
a leopard never changes its spots.