when patience runs low...
Thursday, January 31, 2008
i initially wanted to write a long post on this, but then i decided not to.i realised it had been nth number of times i told myself i wanted to give it up, but it has also been the nth time i got soft hearted and gave in again.
well, i really hope this will be the last time.
somehow, patience is running real low. i can imagine myself exploding any moment. time bomb ticking away...
and this time round, even the other half is testing my patience. all out defence for a person without looking at reason is, to me, just unacceptable.
and so....the bear rings the alarm. watch out, because anything can happen.
don't blame me if u get hurt, for i've been hurt enough.
GP Singapore
Sunday, January 27, 2008
what an interesting post from eng yian. and i suppose there's more to come. LoL.after reading posts on jay chou's concerts, i REGRETTED not going for it. ahhhh!!!!
i will go next time. guaranteed.
and now there's another decision for me to make.
whether to go for the S'pore Grand Prix.
$150 general walkabout tickets, $270 for the cheapest grandstand tickets.
Anyone interested in going?
ps don say i 败家子, it's my own money that i'm spending. yeah, i WORKED for it.
busy busy.
Saturday, January 26, 2008
have been a pretty hectic week, and worse to come....i will try to post at least once a week to keep this blog alive...
you see, i'm trying to balance my work life with a bit of relaxation and stuff...so the last half of fri and first half of sat meant for that...hopefully it works.
thursday was the release of O level results, bp did okayy, but national averages was a 15 year low. the newspaper didn't mention on that part, but i guess the IPs and the difficulty of the paper had to do with it. However, SJI (i heard) moved to band 1, RV did particularly well.
that's that.
i wonder how will the A level results be like, given that it's the first batch of IPs taking it.
I've been looking through websites of universities overseas, and begin to believe that if I do well enough, I can obtain financial assistance or scholarships to study there.
I really hope that can happen.
Somehow, something is calling me to leave this place. At least for a while.
Recently haven't really been myself, can't really tell what happened. I don't like what someone whom I know for some time say about me, but still it has always been the case. i don't have the power to stop anyone from saying anything. All my life I have been giving way to others. Sometimes the price is heavy: my dignity goes in.
Moral of the Story: Don't be soft-hearted. You need to have a strong stand right from the beginning.
Signing off.
Public Transport: A change for the better?
Saturday, January 19, 2008
Today's Straits Times revealed a major change for Singapore's public transport.I really hope it's for the better.
The main problems that LTA is looking at are the few that we commuters usually face: long waiting times, overcrowding and erratic bus arrivals.
Also, it's going to be a distance based travel fare next time, which makes me wonder how they are going to calculate it.
Bad as it may seem, there are still certain bus services in Singapore that are really convenient. One very good example would be 190, which shuttles directly from cck to orchard. Really hope that such buses won't disappear with the bidding system next time.
Let's hope that it's really a change for the better.
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Finally got to talk to him, feel tons better now. Guess yst's dinner with jor helped to.
And so, i'm going to try to enjoy as much as i can now. And stay happy.
slacking away...
200th post.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
My 200th post, and it's going to be an emo one.Okok, i shall try to reduce the intensity.
What seemed to be once so familiar, may seem so foreign right now.
Or should I say, it no longer feels the same. It's just different.
I have always been afraid of change. Certain things I wish they could remain, yet they don't.
I wonder if that applies to all things.
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Emo-ness aside, I have been trying to enjoy my last year as a student. Sounds ridiculous I know, but think about it, there're indeed some joy being a student.
Teachers are fine except for one whom I can't accept his way of thinking, and...with occasional upsets, everything else is pretty fine.
Move on with life.
And happy 200th post.
Servant Leadership
Monday, January 07, 2008
I just read EY's latest post, and could understand what he was trying to get at. It's about the kind of respect that people deserves.
That aside, I would like to briefly touch on my current school's view on leadership.
According to the principal, my school values a model otherwise known as servant leadership, which basically means that the leader is like a servant who serves the crowd.
It isn't up to me to say that this model is wrong, but is the school really getting it in the purest sense?
I doubt so.
My ct has recently encouraged each and everyone of us to at least get a leadership position so that we learn how to lead.
Looking at the biggest leadership committee, the student's council, they somehow do not have the kind of leadership quality that leaders should truly possess.
What I see of them, is that they are just a group of people who wants to have fun out of school through all sorts of planning. To place it crudely, they do things which most other people don't want to do. (it's an overstatement I know, but at least that's how people perceive it to be)
and you can see from EY's post, how some of them fail miserably as leaders.
In most other CCAs, they are told to plan things that are already planned out. (there are exceptions I know of, but few.) For those who don't understand this, you should really bang yourself on the wall.
Leadership is a big word. After being 3 years of leader in my old school, I still fail to understand the real meaning of it. But it certainly doesn't mean pure planning and execution, bringing groups of students around for orientation, and collecting and paying for notes. It definitely means much more.
Sadly, my current school seems to have gotten it all wrong.
我怀念的
Friday, January 04, 2008
曾几何时，我忘了什么是喧哗。
忘了什么是一群好友一起吃喝玩乐，
什么是有福同享， 有难同当。
也忘了什么是期待着明天快点到来。
转眼间，周围变得那么那么的安静， 那么那么的黑暗。
可那永不消失的笑容依然挂在嘴边，
但心里却有那么多说不出的难过。
am i lucky or what.
what a day.some may call it adventurous, but i will just call it pure, dumb luck.
being released at 12.30, i thought i will make a trip back to ICES to settle some documents and of cos, to make full use of the printer there.
upon reaching the pass office, I saw a long queue. and so, i queued for half an hour just to get the damn pass extended.
if that wasn't bad enough, I had to wait for another hour and a half for the next shuttle bus to come. so i decided to take a taxi in instead.
like how parents ask their children to ASK when they don't know what to do, i did. and i was ushered to this place where I could take a taxi in supposedly. but there wasn't any.
I asked another security guard, and was ushered to another guard, this time round making me go onto a lorry, claiming that the lorry will take me to the place i wanted to go, which is ICES.
being a GOOD student, i followed instructions.
BUT. BUT. BUT. halfway through, we were stopped by another security guard, who asked me for my details. And after finding out that i didn't tap my pass, he sent me back and I had to call a cab to get into ICES. what a waste of time.
i wouldn't say whose fault it was, but I was just merely following instructions. if the security guard had asked if I had tapped my pass, probably this wouldn't have happened.
Moral of the story: Don't assume.
First Day of School
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
It's the first day of school today.I wouldn't say I look forward to it. There seems to be so many unsettled business in 2007. it just doesn't feel like the new year.
Somehow, I know that this year is going to be worse for me. When people get busy, they drift apart...till they finally forget each other.
No. It was, and still is, a mutual agreement. Things shall stay the way they once were, wouldn't it?
Emo-ness has gotten over me once again.
Sigh.
Love you guys. Tons.