雨过天晴
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
had the 'feel' to blog suddenly.
I guess reading his blog isn't a waste of time as he placed it, it allows me to reflect too.
I realised that this entire year I had been keeping myself busy with all sorts of things. first was H3, then teaching tuition, then common test and concert. I had not much time to really be alone and reflect or think about certain things thoroughly. Or you could say I'm avoiding it, because I know allowing myself to have a chance to do that will only result in more depression.
Then again, it could be my hastiness that resulted in what happened a couple of days ago. Looking back, I realise I'm getting more and more confused by the day...Because I'm getting numb, even at the things that used to matter to me in the past. I can no longer feel the pain; it's as if my heart has given up. I wonder if that is a good thing...
But I can understand what he is trying to say in his blog, because I have experienced it before...Even now I question myself why am I doing so much work. I guess to some extent it is to fill up the emptiness in my life, and stop myself from thinking too much...
Those people who know me well enough would be aware that friendship is the thing that caused me the most pain in my life...And so I always thought that the moment you step out of secondary school, whatever relationship you form with others will be that of a working one...which is what he claims as 'perfect. peaceful. practical.'
But then again...it would be sad if everyone were to think that way...I still believe that people need close friends, friends who really care. And it is because of each other's differences that the friendship becomes valuable...
i'm not sure if i'm being overly optimistic here, but the way I feel about friends wouldn't change.
Now that the holidays are coming to an end, I really wish I have more time to myself, and just chill out more...This holiday is one of the best i've had...being comfortable and not rushed for time...but it will end soon. In the next few months I will only have Sundays to myself...Hopefully it's enough...
Well...friends are important, but so is having some time to yourself too.
My dear friend, you really sound too old for your age...haha. But I agree with what you say...most importantly just be contented with what you have, and all will be fine. =)
and it's 雨过天晴 for me.
'Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift, and that is why it's known as the present.'
Wu Gui
I guess reading his blog isn't a waste of time as he placed it, it allows me to reflect too.
I realised that this entire year I had been keeping myself busy with all sorts of things. first was H3, then teaching tuition, then common test and concert. I had not much time to really be alone and reflect or think about certain things thoroughly. Or you could say I'm avoiding it, because I know allowing myself to have a chance to do that will only result in more depression.
Then again, it could be my hastiness that resulted in what happened a couple of days ago. Looking back, I realise I'm getting more and more confused by the day...Because I'm getting numb, even at the things that used to matter to me in the past. I can no longer feel the pain; it's as if my heart has given up. I wonder if that is a good thing...
But I can understand what he is trying to say in his blog, because I have experienced it before...Even now I question myself why am I doing so much work. I guess to some extent it is to fill up the emptiness in my life, and stop myself from thinking too much...
Those people who know me well enough would be aware that friendship is the thing that caused me the most pain in my life...And so I always thought that the moment you step out of secondary school, whatever relationship you form with others will be that of a working one...which is what he claims as 'perfect. peaceful. practical.'
But then again...it would be sad if everyone were to think that way...I still believe that people need close friends, friends who really care. And it is because of each other's differences that the friendship becomes valuable...
i'm not sure if i'm being overly optimistic here, but the way I feel about friends wouldn't change.
Now that the holidays are coming to an end, I really wish I have more time to myself, and just chill out more...This holiday is one of the best i've had...being comfortable and not rushed for time...but it will end soon. In the next few months I will only have Sundays to myself...Hopefully it's enough...
Well...friends are important, but so is having some time to yourself too.
My dear friend, you really sound too old for your age...haha. But I agree with what you say...most importantly just be contented with what you have, and all will be fine. =)
and it's 雨过天晴 for me.
'Yesterday is history.
Tomorrow is a mystery.
Today is a gift, and that is why it's known as the present.'
Wu Gui