Reality
Monday, December 15, 2008
I've been thinking of lots of things during my free time...and I realised I'm as muddle-headed as ever.
Firstly, I still don't understand the term 'friends'. Or anything similar. It is a concept I find it so difficult to grasp, that I have screwed myself up many times because of it.
Secondly, I am a 'double-standard' kinda person. I treat different people differently. Sounds ok to some of you, but...Ok, there's this something that happened fairly recently that made me really wonder why I end up getting the blame. The fault lies with me, I know, but why was it that I did not deal with the matter in a better way? Why did I choose to tell her only at a later date when I got to know about it? Isn't it supposed to be the right move? Or I shouldn't have cared at all? I haven't spoken to the person involved ever since, hope she's doing well. (If you read this, please give me a tag...)
Thirdly, I suck when it comes to dealing with relationships. I suppose such an ability is innate.
Well...enough of this kinda touchy stuff. Just hope that everything works out eventually.
Now...here's a list of things I want to do before, during and after NS. haha. Wish list, I guess.
1. 1 and 2 Star Kayaking Course
Firstly, I still don't understand the term 'friends'. Or anything similar. It is a concept I find it so difficult to grasp, that I have screwed myself up many times because of it.
Secondly, I am a 'double-standard' kinda person. I treat different people differently. Sounds ok to some of you, but...Ok, there's this something that happened fairly recently that made me really wonder why I end up getting the blame. The fault lies with me, I know, but why was it that I did not deal with the matter in a better way? Why did I choose to tell her only at a later date when I got to know about it? Isn't it supposed to be the right move? Or I shouldn't have cared at all? I haven't spoken to the person involved ever since, hope she's doing well. (If you read this, please give me a tag...)
Thirdly, I suck when it comes to dealing with relationships. I suppose such an ability is innate.
Well...enough of this kinda touchy stuff. Just hope that everything works out eventually.
Now...here's a list of things I want to do before, during and after NS. haha. Wish list, I guess.
1. 1 and 2 Star Kayaking Course
2. Diving
3. Watch tons of dramas
4. Pack up my room
5. Learn Japanese
6. Play the cello as often as I can
7. And the list goes on...
Till then.
Till then.