book out 3.
Monday, February 16, 2009
i'm typing with my eyes hardly open...just wanna get something off my chest, so here i am.
every time i book out, i spend time only with my family. not saying it's a bad thing, but i realised i'm super cut off from the outside world. and that kind of feeling...isn't something you want to look forward to.
also, my ankle's pretty screwed. not a bone problem, but i can't walk properly. it will recover, but it will recur. i'm not sure if i should down pes, or just leave it alone and chiong command school. i was frank to the assessor during SITest; i told him that if i'm not fighting fit, then i'm not fit to lead. that's my principle la, but now i'm really confused.
after SITest and the talks given by my commanders (who are really great people), my views of BMT and army has changed. Yes, army is a screwed up place...but you just have to be professional. I suppose what I've learnt in the past is reinforced...but it is exactly because of that that i'm even more confused.
and i need to widen my social circle.
every time i book out, i spend time only with my family. not saying it's a bad thing, but i realised i'm super cut off from the outside world. and that kind of feeling...isn't something you want to look forward to.
also, my ankle's pretty screwed. not a bone problem, but i can't walk properly. it will recover, but it will recur. i'm not sure if i should down pes, or just leave it alone and chiong command school. i was frank to the assessor during SITest; i told him that if i'm not fighting fit, then i'm not fit to lead. that's my principle la, but now i'm really confused.
after SITest and the talks given by my commanders (who are really great people), my views of BMT and army has changed. Yes, army is a screwed up place...but you just have to be professional. I suppose what I've learnt in the past is reinforced...but it is exactly because of that that i'm even more confused.
and i need to widen my social circle.
and i want to travel.