it's the first bookout after a month long of mc. alot of politics going on in camp, especially with the arrival of the new sergeant who happened to be my primary school mate. although life in camp is generally boring, alot of things i've learned in secondary school is re-enforced, and i learn more things about the world. while others see the better side of life, as in the case of the many success stories available, i see the not-so-good side of life...i guess i would deal with things differetly if i was the new sergeant. i hope things will improve for him soon. it really sucks to have a bad relationship with your superiors.

i had an early bookout yesterday because of the Army Open House. I shan't comment much on it...if you're interested you can go visit it tomorrow. haha.

now for today. i really had a great day. after more than a year, i met up with marcus. it was weird at the beginning, for he had acquired a slang after his first year in college. it was as if i didn't know him anymore. but things got better a while, and soon it was like the past. we chilled at lot 1 before heading to bugis. had pastamania at bugis junction and walked around the mall. it was cool to be able to chill with someone after so long. and i'm both envious and happy for him for being able to lead a new and carefree life there, away from whatever things that are going on back at home. he did say that when he's there, he completely forgets about things here. i guess it really isn't a bad thing after all...

he's not sure when he's going to come back to the region, which means that i may not meet him in a few years. it's kind of sad to think of this, but...it can't be helped. i don't want to be like a burden or something, so i've decided not to disturb him when he's there. but i will bug him to meet when he's in the region. HAHA. on a serious note though, it's cool to catch up with people once in a blue moon, and reminicise the old days.

after he went back to jb, i decided to watch the proposal. it's a hilarious film...and pretty meaningful too. i liked the ending, allowed the audience to decide for themselves how the actual ending would be like.

this meeting with him (and the movie also) made me reconsider alot of my priorities. although his overseas experience made me want to go also, i guess i'm different from him, and probably not cope with it that well. afterall, i'm an introvert. this is truly not an excuse, and all other reasons i had for not going overseas are still valid in some sense. i've also realised that regardless of what problems i'm having now, i need to move on with my life, and live in the present. he's living his new life in waterloo, with a new group of friends and comapny...no reason why i shouldn't.

and the movie...i'm not sure if i know exactly what having a family or being loved by a family is like...but i guess no matter what happens, no matter what differences you have with your family members, they are still your family.

it's time to move on with life (for the last time), and not spend so much time thinking about things that can't be helped. live in the present, and life's gonna be great.

i need someone special in my life now...that's what i'm short of. haha.