retro, retro.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
other than my platoon's cohesion, which needs no elaboration, this weekend has been pretty great.
i was returning home from bukit panjang when i passed by a very traditional 'wayang' performance along teck whye. it was a split second decision, but somehow i decided to alight and watch the show. it was a really funny one, and i guess i can understand better why Shakespeare plays were so popular during his time. It's sad that such culture is dying in Singapore. I was the only teenager among the audience. Who of my age will be interested in such performances? Even wet markets are slowly being eliminated, what more 'wayang' shows?
i wonder how the next week will be like.
maybe it was a mistake to admit my wrong-doings and my problems to people other than myself. i wish i could forget this part of my past and move on. for i'm turning 19 soon.
i was returning home from bukit panjang when i passed by a very traditional 'wayang' performance along teck whye. it was a split second decision, but somehow i decided to alight and watch the show. it was a really funny one, and i guess i can understand better why Shakespeare plays were so popular during his time. It's sad that such culture is dying in Singapore. I was the only teenager among the audience. Who of my age will be interested in such performances? Even wet markets are slowly being eliminated, what more 'wayang' shows?
i wonder how the next week will be like.
maybe it was a mistake to admit my wrong-doings and my problems to people other than myself. i wish i could forget this part of my past and move on. for i'm turning 19 soon.
maybe.
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
maybe i really complain and whine too much.
maybe my problems and constant whining have scared friends away. very good ones indeed.
maybe these issues are not as easy to accept as they seem to be. come on, even i have problems coming to terms with them.
all is too late. there really is no point in crying over spilt milk.
i thank my platoon mates for allowing me to see a different perspective in life, and how to better deal with my current problems.
i will try my best to live life to its fullest, and not bother so much about problems i have no control over. after all, life is short, so why bother so much?
maybe my problems and constant whining have scared friends away. very good ones indeed.
maybe these issues are not as easy to accept as they seem to be. come on, even i have problems coming to terms with them.
all is too late. there really is no point in crying over spilt milk.
i thank my platoon mates for allowing me to see a different perspective in life, and how to better deal with my current problems.
i will try my best to live life to its fullest, and not bother so much about problems i have no control over. after all, life is short, so why bother so much?
so much for ns.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
i realise that recently, my entries are all about my army life, and how i'm able to see things in different perspectives. it's getting boring on my part, but there's really nothing else i could really write about.
well, there are issues that are worth commenting, but...i just need more information that may not be easily available in camp. and it's definitely not safe for me to blog in camp, so....
whatever it is, life has to move on.
there's one thing i would like to clarify though, i'm working pretty hard in ns not because i'm a up soldier, it's just one of the many ways to keep my problems in check. so please, don't misunderstand.
well, there are issues that are worth commenting, but...i just need more information that may not be easily available in camp. and it's definitely not safe for me to blog in camp, so....
whatever it is, life has to move on.
there's one thing i would like to clarify though, i'm working pretty hard in ns not because i'm a up soldier, it's just one of the many ways to keep my problems in check. so please, don't misunderstand.
BME
Monday, October 12, 2009
last week was the major major major outfield exercise. when it was over, everyone was happy.
i didn't go outfield (but that does not mean i didn't do anything), so i didn't get my day off today. but i self-declared it nonetheless. it's not worth working so hard....
had a fruitful weekend i suppose. went to zouk on friday night, and other than the usual places i visit on saturday, i went shopping. bought a couple of accessories, which i think i will take photos and post online sometime later. i also bought a birthday present for someone, and was very happy with myself. until....
i wouldn't want to say what exactly happened. to place it simply, i don't see how meeting up for a meal and passing a birthday gift could be labelled as pointless and turn the person into someone who is after freebies.
i simply cannot understand.
that aside, many things are not rational, and of course cannot be understood so easily. i guess this is just one of the many issues in the world that is, by nature, irrational.
fortunately, i begin to see life from many perspectives, and that i can understand. i guess that is my biggest take away from my ns life.
it's another week in camp...till then.
i didn't go outfield (but that does not mean i didn't do anything), so i didn't get my day off today. but i self-declared it nonetheless. it's not worth working so hard....
had a fruitful weekend i suppose. went to zouk on friday night, and other than the usual places i visit on saturday, i went shopping. bought a couple of accessories, which i think i will take photos and post online sometime later. i also bought a birthday present for someone, and was very happy with myself. until....
i wouldn't want to say what exactly happened. to place it simply, i don't see how meeting up for a meal and passing a birthday gift could be labelled as pointless and turn the person into someone who is after freebies.
i simply cannot understand.
that aside, many things are not rational, and of course cannot be understood so easily. i guess this is just one of the many issues in the world that is, by nature, irrational.
fortunately, i begin to see life from many perspectives, and that i can understand. i guess that is my biggest take away from my ns life.
it's another week in camp...till then.
horribe horrible week?
Friday, October 02, 2009
this week was mainly preparations for battalion mission exercise (BME). things got pretty hectic midweek, but many things are still left undone.
i see the similarities and stark contrasts between army and school life, and of course the contradictions that lie deep within. we are forced to go to school (if you want to put it this way), and guys are made to serve NS. yet the career paths that teachers and regulars in NS choose are not forced upon them. So whenever regulars are faced with challenges that require the co-operation of their men, and co-operation is hard to attain, they have to bear in mind that this is part of their job, and cannot simply push the blame to others. they chose this career path, and thus it is only natural that they bear the responsibilities that come along with it.
as privates (or men) in NS, our job is to follow whatever instructions that are passed down. if the instructions are clear but not obeyed, then it is the fault of the men; if no effort is made to ensure the clarity of the instructions and the commander does not ensure that instructions are followed closely for the sake of the men, then it is the fault of the commander.
sometimes i wonder why i am doing so much for my unit. it is definitely not worth the time and effort with such commanders around. of course, let us not talk about the nobility of serving the nation. i suppose it's part of my personality that i always complete whatever task that is given. and now, i've to act, sometimes against my will, to protect my interests. the worst part is, there's still many things left undone.
enough of NS life.
the wedding of christopher lee and fann wong is, of course, one of the hottest topics of discussion in town. in particular, the bollywood-style gown worn by fann wong has drawn puzzled responses.
well, i think that dress is a beautiful one. the detail of the dress is elaborate and classic. more importantly, it breaks the fad that celebrities must wear dresses that are revealing of their figures. it proves to everyone that tradition, when added with traces of modernity, can be oozing with charm and beauty.
i wonder when my solitary life end though....
i see the similarities and stark contrasts between army and school life, and of course the contradictions that lie deep within. we are forced to go to school (if you want to put it this way), and guys are made to serve NS. yet the career paths that teachers and regulars in NS choose are not forced upon them. So whenever regulars are faced with challenges that require the co-operation of their men, and co-operation is hard to attain, they have to bear in mind that this is part of their job, and cannot simply push the blame to others. they chose this career path, and thus it is only natural that they bear the responsibilities that come along with it.
as privates (or men) in NS, our job is to follow whatever instructions that are passed down. if the instructions are clear but not obeyed, then it is the fault of the men; if no effort is made to ensure the clarity of the instructions and the commander does not ensure that instructions are followed closely for the sake of the men, then it is the fault of the commander.
sometimes i wonder why i am doing so much for my unit. it is definitely not worth the time and effort with such commanders around. of course, let us not talk about the nobility of serving the nation. i suppose it's part of my personality that i always complete whatever task that is given. and now, i've to act, sometimes against my will, to protect my interests. the worst part is, there's still many things left undone.
enough of NS life.
the wedding of christopher lee and fann wong is, of course, one of the hottest topics of discussion in town. in particular, the bollywood-style gown worn by fann wong has drawn puzzled responses.
well, i think that dress is a beautiful one. the detail of the dress is elaborate and classic. more importantly, it breaks the fad that celebrities must wear dresses that are revealing of their figures. it proves to everyone that tradition, when added with traces of modernity, can be oozing with charm and beauty.
i wonder when my solitary life end though....