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Sunday, November 01, 2009
as the national examinations looms nearer by the day, my role as a tutor comes to a close. it has been a fruitful year teaching others, and i must say i have learnt a lot from my tutees, or rather, friends. i suppose teaching as a profession is not only noble, but much much greater than that.
there are really alot of things that i do not know and understand. the complexity of the global financial system, the unpredictable human behaviour, and the list goes on. i spend time trying to understand and find answers to the never-ending questions that i have. yet sometimes i wonder if there is a point in trying to understand everything. isn't the process more important? isn't the world more complete with parts of it never to be understood by us humans?
i realise in different stages of my life, there have been great people who helped me tide through the difficult times. i appreciate their presence in my lives, albeit short-lived. yet, till today, i'm not sure if there's someone whom i can safely say 'they/he/she will be there for me when i truly need it'. maybe that's my fate. but why bother? if that is how my life should be, then so be it. if the person turns up, it's a bonus. if he/she doesn't, life still moves on.
and so, this is how i live my life.
there are really alot of things that i do not know and understand. the complexity of the global financial system, the unpredictable human behaviour, and the list goes on. i spend time trying to understand and find answers to the never-ending questions that i have. yet sometimes i wonder if there is a point in trying to understand everything. isn't the process more important? isn't the world more complete with parts of it never to be understood by us humans?
i realise in different stages of my life, there have been great people who helped me tide through the difficult times. i appreciate their presence in my lives, albeit short-lived. yet, till today, i'm not sure if there's someone whom i can safely say 'they/he/she will be there for me when i truly need it'. maybe that's my fate. but why bother? if that is how my life should be, then so be it. if the person turns up, it's a bonus. if he/she doesn't, life still moves on.
and so, this is how i live my life.