super short week.
Tuesday, November 24, 2009
it's a super short week...2 days to be exact. no choice, forced to clear off...so i've the next few days to explore Singapore....alone. =)
sometimes i wonder what is wrong with myself...there's so many things left unsettled, and they are ultra screwed up as it is. every 2-3 weeks i will feel like a piece of shit, and wish that things around me were better. but upon reflection it is me making the same mistakes over and over again, and it is the mistakes that i make that result in the same reaction that i get from people around me.
why can't i just change? who will like the current me?
then again, what is the true me? i'm lost, like never before.
should i change so that others can better accept me, or be the real me? or should i try to compromise between the two, if it is ever possible?
and i will continue to do the things i used to do for others, till eternity.
oh gosh. when will i ever, ever change?
sometimes i wonder what is wrong with myself...there's so many things left unsettled, and they are ultra screwed up as it is. every 2-3 weeks i will feel like a piece of shit, and wish that things around me were better. but upon reflection it is me making the same mistakes over and over again, and it is the mistakes that i make that result in the same reaction that i get from people around me.
why can't i just change? who will like the current me?
then again, what is the true me? i'm lost, like never before.
should i change so that others can better accept me, or be the real me? or should i try to compromise between the two, if it is ever possible?
and i will continue to do the things i used to do for others, till eternity.
oh gosh. when will i ever, ever change?